Holy Hell! I REALLY Fucked up!

UGH SHIT!Im VERY angry with myself! I dont like people, I like being alone, I dont have much patience for stupid people and tonight showed me once again why I am the way I am.I trust few and let even_ Phyliss:And i usually get a gut feeling when a girl likes me and im almost always [...]
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Joan:
I get my period on the 20th but my last period was cut short I usually get a 6 day cycle and my last period was only 4 days.
(9 October 2018)

Joan:
I took a test this morning because my boobs are killing me and my lower back is hurting as well.
(9 October 2018)

Rosann:
Should I name my son herion?
(9 October 2018)

Dot:
Is it normal to still get depressed over someone that you can't romantically be with whenever you think about them?
(9 October 2018)

Dot:
I always wonder how different things would've turned out if I never had to of to move to another state.
(9 October 2018)

Dot:
I still kinda get depressed whenever I think about it, since I wanted to marry her and have children with her someday, but that got prevented because I had to move.
(9 October 2018)

Dot:
However she now has a husband, and they are expecting their first child in a couple of months.
(9 October 2018)

Dot:
We haven't seen each other in person since then, but we still occasionally talk to each other on social media.
(9 October 2018)

Dot:
This was very devastating for me and her, since we were extremely in love with each other.
(9 October 2018)

Dot:
The reason we broke up is because I had to move to another state.
(9 October 2018)